a statement from the artist
Using recycled materials in my visual art, I love to re-invent everyday objects, tea leaves, and scrap paper and turn it into something visceral that evokes overwhelming amounts of emotional depth. I am captivated by the layers that abstraction contains, and how you can peel back each one to reveal something deep, meaningful, and sometimes incredibly personal.
Both my visual art and my illustrations are stream of consciousness style--with very little pre-planned elements. My hope is to immerse you in a space where you see the world through a warped and abstracted lens--hinting at how we see things when hindered by debilitating mental illnesses.
I also tend to gravitate towards the mystical in my work, as well as the inexplainable spiritual and natural phenomena encountered throughout our lives. I am drawn to themes like finding hope in the dark, and looking for beauty even when our vision is blurred by trauma and emotional turmoil.
In a way, I want the stylistic elements of my work to tell a story. While that narrative may vary from person to person depending on independent life experiences, I want to immerse you into the world of my previously mentally unhealthy mind through the chaotic and unstructured nature of my work. Throughout adolescence and all the way up until recently (July 2019, to be exact), I had a lot of overwhelming, turbulent emotions I just could not seem to get a grasp on or contain. It was unbearable-- and I didn't know where the crippling emotions, anxieties, and depression ended and my real personality began. For a long time, I thought it was just a part of who I was. I thought I was just highly empathic, and that things affected me so deeply because I just was "different" than everyone else. No one understood (and it didn't seem like I could get anyone to, either). I honestly didn't even know how bad it was, because I didn't know anything different.
Finally, after trying a myriad of medication cocktails prescribed to me, I found the right ones and I am now stable. I can not even begin to describe to you how enormously happy I am, and how my quality of life has drastically improved since.
All of this backstory is a very roundabout way to get at what I am trying to say, which is:
Let it move you, irritate you, intrigue you, fascinate you, or make you feel overwhelmed by something you can't quite pinpoint. Let it do what it does--and I will have done my job.
I want to give everyone who views my work the absolute freedom to interpret what it means to them. While a particular piece that I have created may have a special meaning to me--that doesn't necessarily mean that there can't be numerous other interpretations that exist out there in the universe.
So, whether you hate my work or love my work (or fall anywhere in between)--I hope you walk away feeling something.
Feel. Be human. That is all I ask.
Photo by Kaitlin Ruby